Six days left

It's amazing how fast time moves. 24 days ago I started writing on a crappy novel without any idea where it was going. Some days I skipped writing all together, being far too busy with life to bother, and some days I just forced myself to write the missing words and then continue.
I am still doing exactly that, like life isn't moving forward during November, it just skips the month completely. First there's October and then all of a sudden it's December when you no longer have time for anything book writing related because of Christmas.

My newly acquired fondness for youtube (and youtubers) has been standing still. I still haven't come up with the perfect username, and the more time I spent just watching the piece of paper with names on it, the more hopeless it seemed. That dream is now on hiatus until I can figure out what to do about it.

My winter wonderland

Right now I'm all cosy in my duvet which I have mashed into the armchair in the living room. I have realized that sitting in my bedroom and trying to write doesn't really work for me. Too many distractions, really. And thanks to some really weird dancing Sunday night, my neck is hurting. And thanks to my neck hurting, I have a reason to wear the beanbag around it, which warms me nicely in the chilling cold that is my house at the moment. It's cosy of DOOM! (Although I do find it slightly uncomfortable when I try to sit properly, you have to crane your neck a bit weirdly for the full effect, and double discomfort when it's too warm)

But with the candles glowing in the dimly lit living room, the TV showing an old episode of Friends, with the smell of gingerbread coming from the gingerbread house we made last night (and by made, I mean we mounted it in position) and the snow falling quite miserably outside the window (as it has for the last days now), I can't help but feel that Christmas is coming.

It's still on

I am a very bad updater, but to my defence, my other "normal" blog haven't been updated very well either, apart from the occasional "I'm still alive"-posts. And since this is a more defined blog, it feels ridiculous to just update a current word count and call it a day. But I am, in fact, still alive, and I'm still working on NaNoWriMo for all I'm worth. Truth is that I've only come to chapter five, but somehow managed to write 24.000 words. I am a bit frustrated because the story seems to move so much slower because of it, but at the same time I like that I'm, for once, is as detailed as I possibly can without making it far too boring to read.

At the same time I'm thinking about starting the path of a vlogger. I'm a bit infatuated with the whole concept (and a certain vlogger too), and I think that it would be a fun thing to do. But I'm hesitating for five reasons.

1. I will probably grow bored with it and not update it as often as I should, or take it as seriously either.
2. I have this dream that I will, one time in my life, be internet popular, and not being so will dampen my mood and having me make a fool of myself, which I don't enjoy very much.
3. I can't come up with a good name. It's between two or three names, but the ones I really wanted are already taken (and I fucked up the one I actually got - booh!)
4. Obviously my vlogs would have to be in English for maximum effect, but I don't like to talk English in public, because us Swedes have a very special way of talking English, which I hate and have adapted a fake British accent because of. Obviously me talking fake British and being random is not something people want to see.  
5. I can't act to save my life. Most vlogs are for some reasons a lot about acting out different scenarios, talking to oneself and having multiple personalities. All of which require acting. I.am.not.an.actor! (Although I would like to be)

So I'm not really sure what to do. But I did get the idea planted in my head and I can't get it out of my head. So while I'm banging away at the keyboard, creating silly words for a silly story that's not about friendship, although it's supposed to be, I keep thinking about it, and about how fun it would be to make friends with some other vloggers and actually keep up with that electronic friendship. But I am way more awkward over the internet than IRL.

And that's all I guess.
Until next time
/Kim

It has begun

Two hours and fifty-three minutes ago my November project started. NaNoWriMo begun and I started writing immediately. Thanks to a girl to the NNWM forum I found this new program called Liquid Story Binder and I spent the first hour before the start to make Character Forms to my four main characters, and I'm exploring some things on it. It's really everything a writer can need, built in playlist function, timelines, etcetcetc. It's really amazing.

I admit it, I had some written already so probably a third of the word count was already finished before NNWM started, but it was just a prologue part that I'd scribbled down then the idea came to me, and I liked it so I decided to use it, but I thought I would just stop dead end when the words in my notebook ended, but I just kept writing, and spent nearly three hours doing so. I'm finished with the prologue now and with 3088 words written on the first hours, I'm feeling proud over myself.

The novel is called Friends for never and basically deals with the fragility of friendship. Three friend's loses a mutual friend and vows to be friends forever, but that proves harder than expected when people choose to deal with grief in different ways, and life just moves on. People change and never stay the same.
I chose to write this because I've recently dealt with the trouble myself (and I do get my inspiration from my own life), and I realized how hard friendship is to keep. All it takes is one thing and everything can go away.

Well enough about that, I need a smoke and a bed, in that order and preferably not together.